Bucket List

Ive came across this when I was thinking, what Ive achieved so far in my life. Ive lived 22 years yet I have nothing to be proud of. Well, I spent some time to make a bucket list for myself. Bucket list is a list of your goals you want to fulfill before you die. 

“Kullu nafsin dzaiqotul maut” Setiap yang bernyawa pasti akan mati

(QS. al-Ankabut:57)

We're not going to live forever nor we know when we're going to die. Maybe next year, maybe tomorrow or maybe second after I post this. Besides of my goals to be a better muslimah (yet Im crawling to it), why not adding some challenges to explore His creation :)

While Im doing my lists, I got tangled by a certain context e.g. performance, health, time management, company, MONEY. But mostly my biggest problem is spending a little money to some big plans. But I realized that Ive already crossed out some of my lists;

HIKING

This was taken a year ago when I went hiking with my friends in Broga Hills. But it came to my disappointment when it didnt came out as challenging as I thought it would be. I dont sweat enough (thanks to my jogging routine) and the track made to climb up is just plain. I started to climb before Fajr and reach on top of it while the sun rose. The crowd starting to fill in the top as the sun rose. All in all, it was a great experience for a first timer like me and to witness the beauty of His. But I hope I can go hiking after this with more challenging routes and tracks.

EXPERIENCE A SUNRISE/ SUNSET

There's something soothing when it comes to sunrise and sunset. If I had a chance I always catch the best shot of this. I had collections of this scenery in my pictures. Like, who doesnt love this anyway <3

Well, lots of things to be added. I had tried paragliding and jet-skiing. God knows how I overcome my fear of height and depth. But at the end of the day, it was worth every penny I spent! Some of the experiences on witness His creation cant be photographed but it lives well in my memory. It taught me how little I am to be living in His world and how powerless to beat His creation. Im in love with the nature and most of my lists are influenced by lots of outdoors activities. I hope I can cross out more of my lists ^^

Kahwin

Whenever I came across the timeline of my social networking, this topic seems to trigger everyone. Dari belasan tahun sampailaa my friend pun asyik cakap pasal kahwin.

Kahwin kahwin kahwin!

Hahaha it just bothered me though since everybody rushing out to find the love of your life. Thank god I found one already :p But the thing is Im only twenty-two and when people around me blurted out about this I go like WHAAAAAT, don’t you think at the age like this you would like to spend time with your friends doing silliest things everrrr?! After you had vow to your husband you spend little time with friends or even family tau. Your priority is your husband and you can’t change that.

People only think that marriage is good (well of course good) but they don’t see the responsibility that come in package with it. But then again TWENTY-TWO kot, I think it’s a little early to take that responsibility. Sometimes I think that Im old and grumpy sebab semua fikir nak kahwin, even people older than me doesn’t think that much.

I hate doing house chores. I hate cooking. I just want to relax and hire a butler instead.

Tapi itu dulu.

Now when I met my boyfriend, I had to learn all those things! Haa tulaa gatal sangat nak ber-boyfriend kan. He likes a home-cooked meal instead makan luar. Ive tried lots of time to learn how to cook sampai nak nangis kot, it aint easy maynnn since Im not a natural born cooker. Well practice make perfect. After all those nasi terlebih air, sambal hangit, ayam masak merah rasa pelik, Ive done it! :’) *applaud* It wasn’t perfect but at least I can cook something laa kan. See, he’s lucky to get me who’s granting his wishes, can see after we get marry perut siapa buncit dulu!

Anyhow, just want to stress out that marriage is not easy as saying it. You have to know all those things, take care of your husband and stuffs. That’s not all, are you ready enough to go through the pain of giving birth? Haa! For me, if you already have the special one, just quickly pursue what’s important. Yelaa bercinta lama-lama tak elok. As for me, dua-dua student, have to manage our money lagi, duit kahwin lagi, hantaran lagi, lamborgihini lagi, banglow 3 tingkat lagi, arghh andartu la saya TT.TT

p/s: Actually in love with the wedding dresses <3 aren't they beautiful? Tiap2 hari menghadap 'say yes to the dress' dkt channel TLC. I want one too!

Overthinking

I had this dream over and over again and it turns out to be that it comes from my overthinking. To be honest it is what I feared to happen in my relationship. That's why I had that dream. Well, it happened because of the distance we had and spending too little time with each other. It was nothing actually until he got busy with his 'business'  

Why women think so much anyway?

Those thoughts that you had at 2 am were really disturbing and not like you want it to be in your head but it had. When this happened, I started to doubt everything but the best you can do is ask. That relieve feeling you get when the thought is wrong is the happiest though ;)

That's why I have this routine every morning, besides from recite your du'a, is to let the positive vibes into your thought. If I started my morning with such a bad mood, I can know how my day goes by. Yikes! I really dont want to ruin other's day too just because I dont feel so good. So, when you feel like something bothering you, dont overthink! You get nothing but a headache. lol