Talk about my last post, eventually the company called me for the second interview *heartbroken*. I tried to be nice and rejected it without to offence the HR lady, but it turns out she feel offended. And ended the call with cold and sudden tutt. Sobs. Even HR couldn't accept rejection as everybody else.
Well, move on as it is 2017 and my birthday is coming soon! *giving hints*. I think I have been a better person than I was years ago, hopefully. I really aim to be better than this too in the future. InsyaAllah.
One big step that I took last year is to wear socks to whenever I go. It is kind of awkward when you still love your skinny jeans and you wanted to wear socks to cover your aurah. But being me, well I just go with my guts. I wear them both lolololol. I know I am not perfect but I also trying to find my identity. This action hasn't been driven by anyone else, or being forced (like rules in MRSM), it come out from me since... idk, a long time ago but I didn't have the balls to do it.
This feeling when I first started wearing socks is I feel protected, even at this time I still wearing my skinny jeans (not completely cover my aurah) but those feeling when you obey a little rules by your God, I feel blessed. I really hope that in the future, I am ready to let go my skinny jeans and started to completely cover my aurah. Please don't judge because everyone has been struggling differently and that doesn't make them bad, I do too. I sinned a lot and try to repent myself but by giving bad perception doesn't make me stronger. When scrolling down my media social, I always come across the one that being all ignorant like they're always right and being all judgmental. When they see someone without their hijab, they called her munafikin, when they see a parent scolding their children, they called them uneducated, when they see someone had been through a lot, they told them that they had sinned a lot too and must seek for forgiveness.
Please stop judging!
Everyone has gone through different struggle and none of them you can handle if it is not meant for you. I always told myself not to judge them because sometimes the worst person can turn out to be better than you. I witnessed this a lot.
That is why sometimes I like to be away from medial social as much as I can (Not to mention my phone is completely broken). Anyhow, I used to be someone who judge and also someone who LOVEEEEE to share everything. By I mean everything, I literally means every second, my love life, me watching tv or something that offend someone. I am trying to reduce all of that, and focusing the good in everyone also everything. Whatever bad things they had done, there're always good deep within them.
Lets spread positivity and happy upcoming TWENTY FOURTH!!!!! to me.
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