DNA runs in your blood

I found myself these day missing my mum even more, I don't know why. Hormones maybe. My mum passed away when I was 12, 3 months before I sat for UPSR. My life has never been the same after that. It is tough but I survived :)

But today, I am thrilled to learn something. My dad was rummaging through her old stuff like clothes and handbags and was planning in giving to me. Clothes really doesn't suit me since they're old and not so trendy these days. But handbags, wow they were 3 of them and still they look so new and expensive (not to mention that one of them is Gucci). So I took them and found this small book and a couple of pictures of her. We don't have many photos of her since camera back then was not cheap and capturing picture also was not a trend like nowadays. So, having some of these photos really meant something to me since I started to forget how she looks like, or how she wears her scarf and mostly what taste of her food be like. It was devastating at first but I have passed the stage anyway.

Besides of the photos, what really captured my attention is this small yellowish book that being kept inside one of the handbags. It was the notes of expenses of everything my mum bought. For anyone, it must be some rubbish and would throw it away but for me it reminded me of how I used to have the same small book, and written all of my expenses of the day! Wicked. Not that we resemble each other so much (many people said that I look like my mum) but the fact that we kinda have similar behavior. I know some people do write their expenses down but the people around me doesn't. My family didn't write down their expenses and spending money like there's no tomorrow and my friends, not that I know of. The purpose of doing that is because I lost track of where my money have gone (because I was a big spender, that's why lol). 

Having these kind of similarities really comfort me that even though she is not here anymore, but her presence always be in my heart, her DNA runs inside me and I should be proud of myself for being her daughter. I miss you mum.

lol just like me